Kyanna Lee's Blog

Everyday more and more I find myself in fucked up situations. AND it keeps on repeating like a hamster in a wheel.

YOU KNOW WHAT? FUCK IT.

Fuck everything!! FUCK THIS, FUCK THAT, FUCK YOU, FUCK ME.

I am going to stop and trying to figure everything out and just live my life. I don’t have a good relationship with my mom or my little brother that I love to death. I don’t have a good relationship with my boyfriend, who I treat like shit, because I don’t like a lot of things he does.

I am grateful for his family to welcome me with open arms and not judge me from my past. I am grateful that my mom side of the family can do the same. I am grateful for all my friends for being there for me.

I am grateful for all the love my fans shown me and always supported what I wanted to do with my life.

Getting my priorities together is one of the hardest things ever. BUT it was so worth it. I am trying everyday harder and harder. I had to think less of the bullshit and more and the important shit in life. LIKE……………taking care of ME, and what EYE WUNT TA DEW.

Fuck YOU, FUCK me, FUCK IT.

I miss waking up in the morning and go “HEY, I want to pierce my pussy today…” AND then get my pussy pierced by noon.

I miss the old me. I mean, yes I can be mature and handle my shit, yes. But what’s life without LIVING a little.

Who knows…maybe my pussy has already been pierced. lololololol.

<3 KYANNA. <3 YOU.

You know, I always try to be nice.

And sometimes being “nice” always get me shitted on.

Whether it’s my so called family, or little girls in school.

I guess I will start off with the girls in school. OK…so I don’t dress like a bum to school. And yes I may stand out a little more, because I don’t wear Tshirts and track shorts to school.

They wear Tshirts and shorts, and makeup to school. ????

I hardly wear any makeup….unless I am working (on STREAMATE) or going out…I don’t really wear makeup. I am lazy…but I do like to put outfits together and go “Yeah, that’s cute.” I AM A GIRLY GIRL. I ALSO LIKE SPORTS and NERDSHIT but overall I AM GIRLY.

I guess because I don’t wear makeup or I am so nice…these little girls think I am their age..and they come off as bitches…but u know what YOUR LIFE SUCKS, don’t blame it out on me.  :T

I am happy with where I am in life and who I become. I experienced alot in my life good drama and bad. I DON’T GIVE A FUCK. And I probably have a higher GPA than you.

OK, ME:

1. I have a natural 32C.

2. I run 3.5-5 miles 3-4 days out the week.

3. I study hard.

4. I am good at sex and blowjobs.

5. I like to have not boring outfits.

You cannot possibly hate me, because I am good at a lot of things I do, wait yes you can. BUT honestly I am too old to deal with your little girl bullshit. My LITTLE BROTHER is OLDER THAN YOU.

LIFE HAS BEEN GREAT. I LOVE IT. AND THINGS ARE ONLY GETTIN BETTER. *muahz

Found my brother tweak pipes.*heart shatters YOU ARE DEAD TO ME. We got him a place, a job, and even feed him and shit. I really regret bringing him. He takes everything for granted. So then I call my mom.

And I think she’s even worse then him. She hides her relationship with me, because she doesn’t want to upset her lesbian.1-2 minute conversations turn to 25 seconds long.

I have no respect for these people. I don’t have any direct family. I consider myself an orphan, a loner. A loser. I will try my hardest to be better than this.

I smile on the outside, but inside, I am darker than black.

WHY HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLO THERE!!! How are you?!?!

I noticed that my life has been such a bore since I been in MS…ahha sorry if ya’ll feel that way.

I am just so thankful to be alive and kicking. EVERYTHING IS GOING AS PLANNED.

I AM SOOOOOO HAPPY.

Although my cat has been gone for a really long time, and the stupid apartment keeps on bullshitting with fixing the garbage disposal.

I AM HAPPY.

I cannot wait to get back to CA and get my hustle on! I am thankful for the friends that’s hooking me up with a job and a place to stay for three months. I am also excited to cook and smoke. Hella cool dudes. As cool as they are; is as geeky and party like no tomorrow. What an awesome combo. haha I love em. And they will definitely help take my comics and video games understanding to a whole other level.

FUCK DUDE, I fukkin love cosplay…its like Halloween everyday! I can’t wait to show you have I have in store as soon as my site launches. I am hoping to make you proud of me. Like I said before, I am investing in my own damn self.  Everything will be out of pocket.

After my site launches, I will definitely try to be in as many DUBSHOWS, Adult Shows, and Comic Shows as much as I can. Let’s hope I can make it a city near you! No seriously…well its gunna be all out pocket. I can’t really depend on people “hiring” me. Then again, why would you want to keep working under people? You should always want to work for yourself. Collabos and cross promo is ok…but you just have to be careful.

Working in the Adult Industry for 4-5 years on and off, really took myself away from my own reality. My priorities were fukked up, and it’s nobody’s fault, but my own. My only advice for upcoming stars: Make sure you have a solid gameplan, and stick to it.

I thought  I did so many movies, but I didn’t. I know that once I start promoting myself again, my old movies will be re-released and I will be on covers again. It always happen that way. That’s life. You can never change your past; only accept it, and make better decisions in the future.

The only thing I regret was I wished I had better guidance and a strong plan.

It was still fun tho, no doubt.

SHOWS I MIGHT DO:

DUBSHOW – Miami, FL

DUBSHOW – Las Vegas, NV

COMIC CON – Long Beach, CA

EXXXOTICA – New Jersey, NJ

ADULTCON – Los Angeles, CA ( I will definitely do!)

I don’t have the dates on these shows, because the paper is in the living room and I’m too lazy to get it….wack. haha what its Sundayyyy leave me alone!

PS- All the shows I am trying to do really depends on my school schedule. Which is my number one priority shauuuuuuuuu.

Oh ANDDDDD when I come back from CA, I am working on a mixtape weeeeeeeeeee. How exciting!!!!!

love ya fukker,

KYANNA LEE

HEHE I haven’t blogged in so longggggggggg ahhhh ok.

Here are some tips I promised which worked out so well for me.

TIPS:

• Do 30 minutes of cardio everyday. Running, walking, cycling, swimming, playing Wii, basketball, having sex…anything of that sort for 30 minutes. Try to push yourself a little harder each time. (PS-DON’T KILL YOURSELF.)
• DRINK WATER!!!!!! And if you are a big party head like how I used to be; try to take it down a notch on the beer etc. NO JUICE or SODA. Just water. It’s another way of cleansing your body.
• EAT HEALTHIER. I did not go on a super “starve myself diet” but I definitely changed what I eat. NO RED MEAT, it takes longer for your system to digest. Try to eat more fish, and chicken as protein. Have more fresh veggies and fruits as snacks. When I changed my diet, I couldn’t even finish eating an IN N’ OUT burger….WHICH I LOVED EVER SO MUCH!  Try to eat smaller portions of meals and snacks when you are hungry. NO FAST FOODS.
• NO ENERGY DRINKS OR WORKOUT PILLS. OK I almost died twice…I was on Hydroxycut and I had so many emotional problems and it was all bad…..I WAS YELLING AT MY MANAGER AT WORK and FOUGHT WITH FRIENDS……seriously I wouldn’t advise anyone to take it. My heart was beating way too fast then it should. And I had so many Redbulls that I was crying under my table at a show…NOT A GOOD LOOK. If you need some kind of kick to work out…I always drink coffee…It’s more natural I think….My brother read somewhere in some health magazine that coffee was the best work out stimulate to use.
• STAY PRODUCTIVE. Don’t just lay around or watch TV or stay on the internet so much…You should try to do more things like hang out with friends. Go hiking….find hobbies. Stay busy around the house. ETC.
• POSITIVE THINKING. Don’t be so harsh on yourself. Don’t tell yourself negative things. If you don’t like your weight, then try to fix it. Slowly….there should always be a balance to everything. It will take time, so don’t give up on yourself! Try to set little goals for yourself and complete them. Keep it consistant and eventually you will see progess.

AHHHH – OK.

This is the shoot where I shot the Youtube video. Thank you to my exboyfriend who sucks at shooting, but my homie makes magic with his editing sooooooo it came out awesome!

If you haven’t seen the video yet, I will repost it later teehee.

*This will be the only photo I am releasing from this set, I am throwing away the whole set because it was an extremely waste of time.

THANK YOU FOR CONSISTENTLY CHECKIN ON MY BLOG MUAHHHHZ

KYANNA LEE. WHOA.

WOW – GOOD TIMES!!!!

hehe I did get in trouble…oh well fuck it!!!

69 it BITCH!!!!!

LOL

>.< ky